Wow life is really different than I thought it would be.

I guess the title says it all. In the last 2 years I have gone from a very lonely sad person to someone that was making plans with her brother for the future to now a person that is facing the rest of her life as an old child now missing her brother. I lost JD back in March before my birthday. He was going to move in and we had such plans for life. Now I face each day without him and wishes I could have gone back to before he died and made him come here sooner. Damn I miss him. Some days are good and others are really bad and lonely. My husband and parents are great in helping me get over all of this but it doesn't seem to be working. Need to find a way to honor him and our plans that we had.